I came across a pair of shoes from CELINE while browsing the magazine the other day… well, my first thought was “are you serious??? that’s a shoe?!” Even for a heels-freak like me, i seriously don’t dare to try this style… let’s juz say that the chances of one falling flat on her face would be quite high. Plus it looks pretty fragile to me too… Personally, i think i’ll probably need to buy insurance if i ever walk in it…

Wow!!! It was really an intensive 30 hours of training!!! Haha… firstly, we had to report at 7.30am for registration… which is quite a feat for someone like me… i love my bed in the morning ok??? Well, since i was still coughing (still am), i practically had to sneak out of the house in order to reach church on time… i can’t imagine the fuss my mum will kick up if she knew that i was leaving so early!!! Anyway, i reached on time (yay!!!) and we were then assigned to our individual teams (TEAM 5 ROCKS!!!). The day started with a memory verse test… 24 memory verses that were given to us ard midnight on mon??? I managed to do well… much better than expected… scoring 51 out of a possible 58 marks… seems like my brain is still functioning quite well after all…

The 6 sessions of AMT(A) were totally awesome!!! First we had Pastor How preaching on Loving People, Building People, which took me up to a whole new level in loving others, as well as wanting to know more about others. Next up, we had Dominic, who taught us how to share John 3:16. I had never shared John 3:16 before. Though we had learnt it, the session serves to re-enforce the importance of sharing John 3:16 with new friends, as well as equipping us to have the knowledge and confidence to share in future when need arises…

The third session was done by Fifi… on LIVE and the SMARTER plan… ok, i’m not the best planner of my life… but this time round, i think something really changed inside of me, and i really feel the need to start living my life correctly… planning my time so that i can be more efficient and effective… that’s much needed when i start working in the future.. i don’t see my church commitments getting less anytime soon… or should i say, i want to have the capacity to do more, not just in my ministry, but in my CG as well… I do feel that i’ve somehow neglected my CG alot due to ministry commitments… though i try to be with the CG as much as possible, sometimes it’s just not possible when i’m on bookstore duty… and i do feel slightly detached from them now…

The fourth session was by Pastor How again… this time preaching on building the spirit man… it was really powerful, especially the worship and prayer time at the end of the session… i could feel something change inside of me… i believe that my spirit man is being built up… and the worship part, we really flowed with the Holy Spirit as a church (well, there was only 150 of us, but it really felt like the full strength of the church). We prayed strong, really worshipped God… i do believe that we all had spiritual breakthroughs that night!!! It was like everyone just went to a higher level!!! It was really awesome!!!

The last session of the day was by Charleston, who shared on building our own altar… that sermon really set me thinking… i had heard the sermon before as a relatively young Christian at the revival meeting by Pastor Lia. At that time, Xinyi asked me if i had built my own altar, and my answer was no. I told her that I might stumble if she left God, and if Garrett or Pastors stumbled, I would most definitely fall. (I do look up to Pastors and Garrett alot ok???) I didn’t feel that i was strong enough as a Christian… i was worshipping at other people’s altar. She challenged me to build my own altar at that time… and as i began to grow as a Christian, i began building my own altar… When Charleston preached on building our own altar, it made me think if my altar was strong enough… if one day Heart Of God Church do not exist anymore, will i still remain on fire? Or will i become a normal church attendee? If one day (highly unlikely) Pastor How, Pastor Lia, and all the leaders backslide, will i still be able to stand firm on my convictions, or will i stumble as a result? Is my altar strong enough that i will be able to go through the trials in my lifetime without stumbling???

Anyway, that night, the girls finished showering at about 1.30am… and most of us managed to sleep by 2am (it was cold, and i was coughing quite badly as a result…) Well, instead of the supposed 8am reporting time, they woke us up at 4am for a prayer meeting at 4.30am! It was crazy, but it was good! After a long day, and then less than 2 hours of sleep, we had to start praying for an hour… we really had to crucify our flesh and depend on our spirit… though it was tiring, but we pressed on and prayed for an hour, and then doing another 30 minutes of personal quiet time! I fully understand what Jesus meant by “The spirit is indeed willing, but the flesh is weak”.

After the personal quiet time, we headed up to MPR1 to study for our John 3:16 sharing quiz… we were all tired beyond words… memorizing verses and the different ways to share John 3:16 with others was like such a feat! We really had to force ourselves on! The test began at 8am, and ended at 8.45am… let’s hope i didn’t do too badly on the test…

The final session of the whole AMT(A) was taken by Garrett, who preached on communication. He was so funny… ok, now i know Garrett can really get a little crazy in the morning because he is a morning person… (i, on the other hand, gets crazy at night… i love my bed in the morning…). Well, it was another great sharing session… only that we were all struggling to keep alive. I literally had to dig my nails into my arm and scrape myself with my pen to keep myself from dozing… but then my eyes still shifted out of focus during parts of the sermon, and i think my eyes did drift shut a couple of times… (Sorry Garrett!!! My flesh is indeed too weak…) though i could hear everything that Garrett shared, i have to say that my mind had half shut down… i took a long time to digest and link Garrett’s words together… no matter, i shall go and revise my notes… now that i’ve had a few more hours of sleep…

All in all, AMT(A) was a great experience! Though it was tiring physially, I grew alot from the 2 days, both spiritually, and in discipline… I am ready to push on and expand my capacity to do more for God now… and more importantly, with my spirit man growing strong, I’m now more hungry for the Word of God, and have once again made my decision to do my quiet time daily and spend time in fellowship with God… I am falling in love with God all over again… It’s gonna be exciting!!!

i should start reading my bible everyday… i should set aside time to worship God and study His Word…

Got a revelation from God the other day. Ok, it’s quite a private revelation, so i shan’t reveal it to the whole world. If it comes to pass, i’ll definitely post it up. (But that will be in 2 years time… what God told me is not supposed to happen till 2 years later!) It was just very random worshipping, i was listening to some worship songs and then i kinda got lost in them… haha… i’m sure a lot of ppl have the same experience… anyway, i didn’t realise how much i missed God till then.. God is really a GREAT God… He waits for us patiently to come seeking for Him… and He’s always there for us… all the time!!! How many friends or even family members can do the same for u??? Anytime u call on Him, He’s there. When you’re in trouble, He’s there to help you… better still, He’s there to make it all ok again!!! He’s really the best!!!

Well, there’s been some exciting stuff that’s gonna happen in my life… first of all… i’m going for AMT(A). Ok, AMT is Advanced Ministry Training in church. Fantastic! I know i’ll definitely learn alot from AMT(A)!

Received a call from Liane this afternoon… asking me if i would like to go for discipleship class. Are you kidding??? It’s a definitely YES, with a huge capital Y ok??? Woohoo!!! you can’t imagine how long i’ve been waiting to go for discipleship classes with Pastors!!! i’ve been waiting for so long… wondering when i’ll be ready for discipleship classes… and now finally i have a chance!!! I wouldn’t give up on any chance to learn from Pastors!!! But now, i have to get my heart ready. Pray for an open heart and a humble spirit, so that i can learn as much as possible. Of cos, let it not only be head knowledge, but heart knowledge… and everything that i learn, i’ll be able to apply in my life so that i can grow to be a better Christian, to be more Christ-like!!!

I’m so happy now!!! I’m in a great church, with great Pastors, great leaders, a great CGL (yes Liane, that’s you), in 2 great ministries that never fail to bring me to a whole new level in my spiritual walk, and of cos… i have a GREAT God!!! God, I love YOU!!!

Asia conference was totally AMAZING!!! 5 days of powerpacked sessions… though i only managed to go for 3 days. Was too sick on fri… i was like coughing my lungs out! Man, i’ve been sick for more than 2 weeks! it’s nearing 3 weeks already! And my voice… it sounds terrible right now! Hoarse and well… low. Actually i won’t mind that much, but then with my voice now, i can hardly worship God. I can’t reach the high notes cos i’ll strain my voice, yet i can’t reach keys that are too low as well. So it’s almost like totally out of tune when i sing!!! God, I need You to heal my cough and my voice!

Anyway, back to Asia Conference! Pastor Phil Pringle, Pastor Ulf Ekman, Dr A.R. Bernard, and Pastor Kong are awesome! They are all so anointed… great men of God!!! I really learnt a lot from their teachings! Man, do i need to wait till Asia Conference 2010 to see them in action again? Ya, i know, i can always listen to sermons and watch videos or something… but there’s a difference in the atmosphere when u can actually physically in the congregation when they preach. Whatever you feel and whatever revelations you get will be different. How i wish that i’ll be able to listen to them more often… haha. But then again, Pastor How and Pastor Lia will always be the best. My favourite pastors in this world wide world… and Heart Of God Church! The BEST church in the world!!! I can’t begin to tell you how much i love Pastors and Heart Of God Church… words can’t even express my love for them!

C3 band came to Heart Of God Church on Saturday as well! They are totally fantastic man!!! My fav band in the world… Ok, i have got to confess… i haven’t been listening to a lot of secular music ever since i became a Christian… most of the songs i listen to are Christian music… But the music of C3 worship never failed to make it to my fav song list!!! And having them in Heart Of God Church, it was such a great experience. Ya, they played at Asia Conference too… but at Asia Conference, they were like so so so far away… it was totally different to when they were at Heart Of God Church… not to mention that Heart Of God Church is HOME ok??? That makes a whole lot of difference!!!

Oh, one last thing… i’m so happy that Pastor How is ordained as a REVEREND!!! Woohoo!!!

Ok, i’m gushing already. Should stop now and get to bed… or else i’ll get high…

Can’t wait for Asia Conference 2010…

Graduation’s over, and a new chapter of my life begins. More responsibilities, higher expectations… it’ll be a turning point of my life. True, it’s not as if i’ve never worked before… but when you’re a university graduate, more is expected of you as compared to a diploma graduate. You’ll be expected to handle more, expected to know more, expected to be able to think out of the box, expected to be able to perform and produce results. It may even be the same workplace that you are working in, but much more is expected of you. It’s like as if you have grown up overnight…

Am i thinking too much? Maybe. Sadly, the world works in such a fashion. At least, my ex-boss indicated that much when we talked about my career prospects back then. More responsibilities, that’s the first thing she told me. It’s really time to step into a new phrase in my life and grow up…

Back to the convocation, it was really a long and boring event man! You just sit there, clap and clap and clap non-stop while the graduates go up to the stage to receive their “cert” (which was just an empty folder, by the way). It got really tedious by the end of the first block, and many of us ended chatting with our neighbours… I was really lucky that my neighbours were all people from my cohort, and they were people that i usually could talk to. Phew! Imagine if my neighbours were people i didn’t know, i would have been bored to tears!!!

I’m irritated. Dun even bother asking why.

I know i should be asleep. It’s too late at night. But i’ve got things to do…

I know i should be doing those stuff so i can rest earlier… but… well…

I know i need to focus and be more efficient… well… that’s something to work on…

I shall grow to love D.E.A.D.L.I.N.E.S. (Deadlines doesn’t equal death sentences, after all.)

I’ll go back to editing my draft after i finish typing this…

… where have all my creativity juices gone to??? I’ll place a $1000 reward for it… (like it can be found! ha)

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Last Sunday, Charleston preached a fantastic message on leadership!!!

Liane preached a great sermon on R.A.C.E. during CG today.

This Sunday, it’ll be Garrett’s turn. I just know that it’s gonna be just as awesome!!!

I love my leaders! I love my Pastors! I love my church!

I’m looking forward to services with Nick Vujicic!!! Are you?

Yes… I’m finally graduating!!! 8 Nov 2008… here i come!!! Now that we’re finally graduating, it’s really time to get out fully into the working world, to face the pressure and temptations out there. I wonder how am i going to survive in the working world? With higher qualifications comes higher pay, but yet also higher committments and more responsibilities. But it’s really times like these when i’m super duper grateful to Pastor How and Pastor Lia… for they have instilled in me Christian values… values that i’ll definitely bring to my workplace in future!!! Well, but first of all… have to find a job first!!!

Pastor How preached about the bank of God today. How we have to change our mentality. God is not the bank. We are the bank, where God deposits money and talents in us, and it’s up to us to grow our talents and money. One key point to note is that we are to walk in faith. I’m gonna believe that God will provide a job even under the economic crisis in this season. Then everyone will know that it’s by God’s miracles!!! FAITH! FAITH! FAITH!!!